Today’s soundtrack

  • Sweet Transvestite – Tim Curry
  • Creature of the Night – Susan Sarandon
  • Run – Gnarls Barkley
  • Crazy – Gnarls Barkley
  • Dirty Harry – Gorillaz
  • Faust – Gorillaz
  • Modern Love – David Bowie
  • Feel Good Inc. – Gorillaz
  • We Could Be Heroes – David Bowie
  • Video Killed the Radio Star – The Buggles
  • Fidelity – Regina Spektor

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
when it breaks my heart

Suppose I never, ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never, ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never, ever saw you
Suppose you never, ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course it’s gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better better better better

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And It breaks my heart

Rocky Horror Picture Show

Voof!

Lovefool

Dear, I fear we’re facing a problem,
You love me no longer I know and,
Maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do.
Mama tells me I shouldn’t bother,
That I ought to stick to another man,
A man that surely deserves me.
But I think you do.
So, I cry and I pray and I beg,
Love me, love me, say that you love me,
Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me,
Love me, love me, pretend that you love me,
Lead me, lead me, just say that you need me,
So I cry and I beg for you to
Love me, love me, say that you love me,
Lead me, lead me, just say that you need me,
I can’t care about anything but you.
Lately, I had desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wondered,
What I could have done in another way to make you stay,
Reason will not teach a solution,
I will end up lost in confusion,
I don’t care if you really care as long as you don’t go

(The Cardigans)

Minuetto

It was dark, and there was the pouring rain outside. I was cold and frightened, just wondering when would I be able to come back home. There was a loud silence around me.

I decided to take a walk, to see if I was able to find the way back to home and to the Light, but, as more I was going around, more I felt as I was always in the same place.

So I cried, I begun screaming, with the whole air my lungs were able to grab. Then you arrived.

I can’t describe all joy I tried in that moment, when I realised someone decided to answer to my appeals. You came, you smiled to me, you lent me your helping hand, and you took me away from that rain.

But you did not take me to the Light, no. And I’m afraid this is my fault, because from the first moment I put my eyes on you I should know you were not going to give me the peace I’m looking for. I should know that you would be my misery, because you do not seem to be one who knows what means to take care of someone who cares of you.

Now I’m in a cage, in a golden cage. And you are my jailer.

And, this is the worst, I have no strength to leave you.

Today’s soundtrack

I use to group some songs I listen to during my day into a sort of small soundtrack. It makes me feel as if I could keep with me all my memories, and the key to reach them is a certain song. It already happened several times, while listening to the radio I remember some past episodes of my life… it makes me feel good, it helps me to write my story.

This is a small extract of what I was hearing today:

  • It’s raining men – The Weather Girls
  • Rock it – Gorillaz
  • Gerontocrazia – Demetrio Stratos
  • Ain’t nothing but mammals – The Bloodhound Gang
  • Out of time – Blur

Here is Out of Time lyrics, one of the most beautiful songs I ever heard in my whole life.

Where’s the love song?
To set us free
Too many people down
Everything turning the wrong way around
And I don’t know what love will be
But if we start dreaming now
Lord knows we’ll never leave the clouds

And you’ve been so busy lately
that you haven’t found the time
To open up your mind
And watch the world spinning gently out of time

Feel the sunshine on your face
It’s in a computer now
Gone are the future, way out in space

Tell me I’m not dreaming but are we out of time?
(We’re) out of time

I’m realising it is a quite heterogeneous list, but I have also a somewhat shifting character, that goes from melancholic to bubbly. Maybe it’s because I’m born under the sign of Cancer, who knows? :-)

Prelude

Hope these words will help me to reach the Light.

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